Today i see the world through rested, but tired eyes, that are a hint further away from single life!
Couples on the streets, kissing and caressing each other, damn they look adorable! They look happy and full of love! I doubt that thats the way i look like, but thats how i feel. Sure it might be because of summer, but what do they all say?: i wish this summer would never end..

Story-J-aim

This never ending pile of lies, used for people not to get hurt: has to stop growing!
Not only once, but now twice has this happened, and i don't feel less hurt at all, i feel more tricked and lied to more than anything!
This past winter i got to know this fine young gentleman who offered me a chance to spend an evening with him and his friends, and i took it! We had a blast, but the short cut ending to his adventure yet to be started stopped in the fact that he "still" had a girlfriend!
Well i went away, and naturally came back, had a somewhat of a fresh start with him with a longer, extended get-to-know each other game.
After a while he had me know that there was no future to hunt as he didn't want to answer to anyone at this point in life.. So he left me with compliments and gestures of free feeling love...aka shit...
Now FB informs me he has started dating a girl, another J, aparently better option than myself! Just bitter kidding, i obviously understand i am not "the 1 " for him, but the one to be honest to, i could have easily been, and deserved to be!
Nothing further, your honor!

Midsummer-J

With this we shall find out about the husband to be! So they say... So i thought, why not try!
To be honest, i've been doing this since i was like 7... Still nothing but going strong!
But what it you did have the chance to see him.. Would you want to? Why waste time on looking when you could just wait, party and see what comes up?!

J-First Times

 Crush drunk is the best drunk ever! I was actually having trouble standing up after my first kiss at my third date with no. 3. This could conclude that my new lucky number is 3!
   Some friends of mine who are in a long committed relationship tell me, that the few things they miss about dating, are the "first" everything.
   When you touch the first time and it feels like no one has ever touched you before. The shivers and the heavy uneven breath that takes you in when you get closer to each other. The shy smiles you start sharing just because you're staring into each others faces for the longest time before you carefully lean in to feel the base you're floating on. Sweet Jesus...and then you're gone.
   Don't blame those friends of mine one bit, because that, what i have just described for you, is the best feeling i know..

J-Morning Glory

Uhh don't you just love those mornings when you wake up entirely happy with no sorrows or regrets. Whether that feeling lasts for a second or the whole day it feels beyond awesome!

This feeling for sure has something to do with guy no. 3, who did say yes to going out on a date with me.

It's insane what someone can make you feel, good or bad..and with this, i can't wait to cherish the good!

I still carry a bit of a background check for this one that ties me down a little, but that shall be put in the old ghosts closet after i find out more, chenquie!

memo. ps. ALWAYS make a background check!

J-Score

I feel like a 13 year old girl again, chasing the boy next door..
I can just imagine how confusing my dating status might seem to the outside world sooo...
To clarify: i'm organizing myself between 3 guys.
1. Been on a couple of dates, score: first base
2. Been hanging out, and still warming up.
3. Still need to make my move and ask him out!
Tomorrow shall be no. 3's lucky day!!!

J-Bailing≠Dating

Ugh, Monday..
Weekend was great, spent it with my girlfriends, enjoyed the mixture of single and taken, partied, drank, shared, love my life during these times, and also during some other times as well..

But today..ugh!!! Bailing while dating, does not work! And when the bailing is done to me..well, its game over.
As I have been trying to extend into bigger fields, keeping my strings well organized, no tangles or messes, just fun, I just start finding myself too far from the other ends of the strings. HOW, and why, again?! Thank god its summer, rain and 10°C, which makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I'm thinking that I should leave these OLD "hags" behind, and go ask that cute guy out, that I've been dying to get to know...mission, yet to accomplish!

J-Smile

J-Smile

This week was beyond interesting when looking at it from my prespective. Summer has finally started, terraces are filled up with people, and it is game time! Fast are the only that eat, and thats just the way the cookie crumbles..
   This week I'm going to "collect" smiles and start up the season of summer-loving!
Oih, how shallow of me, but I like the challenge!

I

Hei.

The quality of my life has been pretty damn good for the past three months. Before it was not.

I decided to change my whole attitude towards life; I started to love and accept myself as a person who I am, I got to do things that i actually seriously love and give me adrenaline kicks in and out all the time, I started to spend time more on the things that actually matters to me. So basically, I chose the way that not many people seem to be ready to walk: I wanted to get to know who I am and what I want, and not escape the reality as i did for a long long time. Done and done.

Life is very very simple. Eat, sleep, drink, see your friends, do sports, work, and most of all: do what you love, and do it often. How come people don’t then do what they actually really really want to? There seems to be a certain path in our society, that everyone is forced to follow. Can you actually be happy then if you live for someone else all the time, and not for yourself? I don't think you can.

Live for yourself, and not through the others. Tell yourself how fabulous you are, and accept the fact that you don’t need someone( a guy) to make you a better person, or to give you more confidence.  Of course you need your family and friends, but especially you need YOURSELF. Be there, do that, LIVE.  Everything is possible for you, once you accept yourself as a person who you are.

Business Time

I'm not quite sure what i want to write about today, but i still had the feeling that i should.

My mind map goes around every little experience and detail that i have had regarding single-hood, relationships, the thrill of new and the comfort of something old. For most part i feel that many young people enjoy being in control of themselves, and being able to choose whatever they feel like or whatever they want, and i'm taking advantage of those very rights at the moment (of course when talking about relationships and such).
  I can't deny that i don't feel the need to belong in somebody's arms once in a while, when i find myself next to some half strange man who screws me over with two lousy-lazy minutes, and calls it "done" by leaving to see his friends, after what he believes has been "better than one minute in heaven"(please see: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGOohBytKTU)..and trust me, nothing leaves your bed colder than that.  BUT what-the-hell..these sons-of-biches will never end up as anything else as our bad mistakes that we shall learn from!
  Anyhow, strangely enough the knowledge of not being held down, by those same arms that could offer a nice warm cuddle, gives me some sort of comfort as well...at least at this point in life.


 Weekend shall start soon, and again!

Date night

Yesterday was a special one in one single girls life! Yes, I went on a date, with one fine young lad.
This is how it went: a walk in the park, then we got comfortable on the couch, couldn't stop kissing me all over and then we had those long deep stares into each others eyes and that is when I knew his owner and I were meant to go further.

Rule no. 1
You can almost always count on men with cute dogs... I mean thats why they get them, to get us, so just go with it!

New Years Resolutions, J

It is time to go into the past, and search for a background for this never ending single-woman-sotry.

  Today's note will be going into new years resolutions, and one important one I made for this year (2012). I promised to look good everyday I would leave my house.

   This promise goes back to all the assholes, and the brainless bastards that have come on my way and taken a piece of me to where ever dirty dungeons they live in!!

   So people, the main purpose of this resolution is: Look good, so that when you bump into these past years boyfriends and flings that didn't treat you with respect, they will see what they're missing out on! BOOM..

...AND when looking good, it is way easy to get some new waves moving. 

Hasn't failed me once,

Cheers!!

J-Day

So today, is my birthday!.. And I feel like I should never write about the joyful things of being single again, since it seems there are none at the moment!
 I'm merely joking, obviously, but what can you do, when it's not a "good morning" from anyone, and even your roommate (who you have known for 18 years) forgets, you definitely start wondering about...well at least getting a dog!!
  What is the balance from this glorious morning of mine?
-Breakfast, I made for myself..
-'How I Met Your Mother' episode that for some reason isn't airing till NEXT WEEK!!!!
-AND a rose on the living room table..that my roomy got from her EX.
   I shall hope for an excellent weekend!

Monday

Clearly, we can all understand the hard times of Monday!
After an awesome weekend parade of parties and bars, we have to start from the beginning. No morning kisses, or breakfast in bed for me, NO..

Just a small sun lit room, and a bad hair do!

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